Hello!

I have been thinking a lot...

I want to make a few changes to what I currently have.

I'm thinking that I will probably stop updating this blog, and all the others as well. I'm going to start a blog on my website, and there I will put up my personal updates instead of here, and all the other blogs. I think it will be easier for people who visit my website. Not that many, but still, haha. Also, I don't like Xanga. It's so difficult to get everything how I want it here. I like being able to do whatever I want with my pages without there being a block stopping it in the way.
I probably won't delete this site though, because I have updated on it quite a bit, and I would like to someday comeback and check it out again. I like looking back at old things of mine. It shows me how much I have grown. For example, I have quite a number of blogs on Xanga that I made from previous years. I haven't deleted most of them for a reason. I did delete ONE however, and I regret that, because it was the most important blog to me. It was very active too.

Soo...I actually have a blog on VOX.com in which I have been updating a long with this one for about a week and a half or so. I will probably end up deleting that one, because it has the exact same content as this xanga. I was cross-posting...

Along with a new addition to my website, I will update the layout for it. I have a project started already from around July. I failed to finish it though. I will get started on it again next week. I'm actually very excited about this! It's not unusual, haha. I get excited when I'm working on a new layout, then soon after it's up or even only being close to finished, I get bored of it and want to start a whole new other project!

I'm only hoping I will have time for all of this! College homework is starting to pile up. I have a lot of reading to do this weekend...
Speaking of school...it is getting better! I do seem to be enjoying it more now, and I think it's partially because I know some people. Although I must admit, it would have been nice going to a school where I knew no one. I like having the opportunity to make new friends and spend more time with them to learn of them better. But, it's also nice having a familiar face to comfort you in the unknown.
There is only one thing that is beginning to concern me now, and it's something I don't want to fall back into. I'm trying not to, but it really isn't simple to do. I really hate the feeling and I would rather not have to go through it for the 400th time! AH! >_<

...I think I'm beginning to slip...noo...

OKAY!
LET'S ignore such tragedy because I don't want to think about it!
So, I have this phone strap. It is a cute little penguin and he jingles whenever you move him around. AND, whenever the phone vibrates, sometimes, it sounds like a little rattle. It's pretty cool. BUT, right now that I am in school, he isn't particularly favorable, so I need a new one! I really like him though. Which is why I bought him. Here he goes.




This little guy...



I really don't want to replace him, but he gets a little noisy.

So...

Last night was great! I spent some time with a very, very good friend of mine. We went to the movies, and after that we went out to get something to nourish our bellies. We watched "House Bunny", which had it's moments as well as it snore moments. I'm not into chick flicks, but since it was either that or some other movie with Vin Desiel [whatever his name is] in it, I chose the comedy, haha. The food at the restaurant was SO GOOD, omg. But, it was absolutely bad for your body. I came home and worked out because I felt like I was going to be 30 pounds heavier the next day, haha. We had a really good talk though, I have been needing the company of a friend who is willing to listen to me for, wow, a very long time! It felt strange speaking of myself for a change though. I'm so used to being the listener that I felt almost uncomfortable hearing myself speak for once. It was nice though!

The hard times have begun once again!
Yet, I hear that it will be 10x harder at this point! They won't babysit us anymore (ﾉ_-｡) ...

The day was good. I didn't get terribly lost which was my biggest worry. I am thankful for my friends who help me no matter what!
I must admit that seeing some faces made me a little less than happy. Am I just so negative? I guess I just have a problem with letting the past interfere with my present. Unless my past is loved. There are just some people we don't want to see anymore. We are human, we can't love everyone.

I am very tired as of now, yet, I came at almost midnight to update! I felt I needed to let some things pour out to clear my mind before I go off to sleep.

I have too many concerns. I restrict myself too much, don't I? I have to learn to be less hard on myself. It is not good. However, it is the only way for me to accomplish my goals, by being hard on myself.

n一...
The day after tomorrow I go back to school. I hope it gets better. Currently it is the typical first day. It's the point that even if the day was great, you still feel a little sad because it is still a bit unfamiliar. At least this is how it goes with me! I will fight through it though. It's only a cycle.

I enjoyed sweets today!

It was good (°∀°)b !

Oh! And should I not forget! Thank you so much for the comments Juline! It's so nice to hear from you again! I noticed that your blog is not listed on your contact links anymore. The last time I went to check on it the website had a notice about them shutting down their services. Though, I'm very glad that you stopped by! I'm not even sure if you will read this, haha, but hey, I just wanted to show my appreciation! I will e-mail you thanking you anyway! I haven't done so considering I'm sure you are a very busy woman, I didn't want to bother you! But, hopefully it won't be much of a bother! (^-^)/

I think I'm getting sick!